February 23, 2009 was the last time I used pills to get high...February 23, 2009 was my Grandma Carter's 76th birthday. I went to her birthday party loaded. I was kicked out by my family...we fought over my pills in my grandparents driveway, all while my Grandma and Grandpa sat in the house, sad beyond words.
February 23, 2010 was one year since I decided to get clean (I like to consider this my sobriety birthday so I can share this day with my Grandma)...February 23, 2010 was my Grandma Carter's 77th birthday. I flew to Utah from Florida and I spent her birthday next to her death bed as she lay in a coma.
February 24, 2010 would be what some would consider my one year clean date. February 24, 2010, I was one of six people in the room as I watched my beloved Grandma Carter pass through the veil to be with those who had passed before her. I stood next to my Grandpa and tried to comfort him as best I could as his sweetheart and eternal companion left him here on this earth.
My Dad told me if my Grandma had a dying wish it had been fulfilled. She had seen me clean, seen me stay clean, and seen me happy. (You might remember my Grandma supporting me from this post). I cant help but look back at the past year and realize how close I came to NOT making it. To not giving any of my Grandparents (because I know they ALL wanted that for me) the chance to see the Jami they really know and Love...
Yesterday we buried one of my greatest examples here on this earth, and one of my biggest supporters. Yesterday as I stood with my cousins to sing Families Can be Together Forever I realized WE CAN, and WE WILL, and I am finally doing my part to make sure that happens. I have been clean for ONE YEAR, and hopefully it is just the beginning. Because I am going to do everything in my power to be with my Grandma Carter again. One day at a time!
Love,
Jami
P.S. Please forgive me for not posting for so long. With starting my new job, and the emotional struggle I have had with my Grandmother the last three weeks, I just didnt have the strength mentally or physically to put together a post. I promise not to go that long again.
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1 day ago
I am sorry........ but think how lucky you are to know and think straight to know what blessings you have. Many have those blessings but their minds are boggled and can no longer believe! You have come so far and are able to do this!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your Grandma. But congratulations on hitting your one year mark!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your Grandma, but what a special thing for both of you to have some time while you are doing so well and she was able to see it.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your sobriety, you are doing so well!! I know how happy it makes me that my family member is clean and sober so I am sure it makes your family just as happy and proud!! Thanks for being a voice behind such a difficult trial!