Stressed in a Good Way

Wow...so much has happened the last few months...some GREAT things, some SAD but GREAT at the same time, and just some things. First off is my job. I'm the BOMB!! (I just had to give myself a little credit) I absolutely love my job and I think I am doing very well. (Just ask my Dad, for some reason I have this need to call and tell him every time I do something good.) Im sure that is addict behavior of some sort, but I also think it is good, so I dont think I am gonna stop. For the most part I enjoy the people I work with and we have a fun time. I love going out and selling and having more of a management role. It is a boost to my ego that my boss asks me for advice and values my opinion.
The first couple of weeks I didnt handle the stress of working and having stuff to do at home so well. I was DeAd TiReD when I got home every night, and boy was I ornery. Matt told me he didnt like the "working Jami" and I realized I needed to change my attitude. I realized I am going to get stressed and tired, but I needed to handle it differently. Otherwise I could see it leading me right back to using. So, I have changed my attitude and made goals. I clean just small areas each night when I get home (for instance I cleaned the toilets in all of the bathrooms last night. That may seem small, but after coming home from work (and being sick on top of everything else) that was a big accomplishment. Baby steps, baby steps. My home is presentable enough that if anyone of you were to walk into our home today, I would not be embarrassed or ashamed. That's all I need!
It has helped me a ton to be busy doing what I love. I look forward to waking up and going to work. I do find myself at times when I go to meet with big clients thinking "I need a pill to help me get through this" but I quickly get those thoughts out of my head and encourage myself because I know Jami can do this. It was never the pills that did it, It was Jami.
So, My life is going SO good. Matt and I dont get to see each other as much as we would like, but we spend every second together that we can (which is pretty much our lunch breaks)
Today, I am Clean, I am Happy, I am Hopeful and I know I CAN DO HARD THINGS! (without pills) Just for today I will take care of myself physically and mentally, and just be happy with where my life is right now.
Love,
Jami