Being Strong

I just saw this saying on someone else's blog, and I thought it was awesome. It said : You never know how STRONG you are..until STRONG is the only choice you have.
Well today, that is the only choice I have. I have been in a funk. I have been in dry drunk mode, ornery, always not feeling good, just down right feeling crappy. That comes directly from my actions, or lack there of. I havent chosen to be strong. I have chosen to be weak. But today, I realize, STRONG is the ONLY choice I HAVE. I am so glad I HAVE A CHOICE!! I am not in active using where that choice has been taken from me. Today, I have the choice to be strong. I have the choice to wake up and be happy, or wake up and be miserable (and make everyone around me miserable).
Today, I am realizing how truly strong I am, because this battle is far from over, but the battle of staying clean that I have been fighting for over 18 months, is SO WORTH IT!! In December of 2008, I would have never thought I would have made it this far. I dont think my family would have believed I would have made it this far. I have had bad days where I dont live on the "pink cloud" but I can live through those days without having to use. I am still learning to deal with my emotions, and with others actions. but I dont have to use. Today, I am strong, and the harder I work, the Stronger I will be become. So for me, Strong was the only choice I have had, and MAN, IM STRONG!!! Just for today I will keep taking things one day at a time, I will choose to be strong, one day at a time. I love you all!
Love,
Jami